Gravity seems to work differently the older you get
Gravity seems to work differently the older you get
2022-06-19 02:10:30 +0000 UTC View Post
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Working on the (big) booty tan
Working on the (big) booty tan
2022-06-17 04:23:25 +0000 UTC View PostI know it’s a terrible bathroom selfie but here’s a few pics..
I know it’s a terrible bathroom selfie but here’s a few pics from last night. My youngest’s preschool grad 🥹
2022-06-17 04:19:01 +0000 UTC View PostRegardless of using the sunblock, I spend so much time outsi..
Regardless of using the sunblock, I spend so much time outside I always look a little weathered lol
2022-06-17 01:29:07 +0000 UTC View Post
Pardon the high-waisted mom jeggings 😂 I wasn’t anticipating..
Pardon the high-waisted mom jeggings 😂 I wasn’t anticipating anyone seeing the upper part of my pants today
2022-06-14 23:07:45 +0000 UTC View Post
I’ve developed a gradient tan line 😑😒😠 lol so annoying
I’ve developed a gradient tan line 😑😒😠 lol so annoying
2022-06-11 22:28:22 +0000 UTC View Post
I have a lot of words but today I can’t bring myself to writ..
I have a lot of words but today I can’t bring myself to write them
2022-06-06 22:06:24 +0000 UTC View Post
Happy Sunday! May today be restful and not too full of chore..
Happy Sunday! May today be restful and not too full of chores, a chance to take a breath and prepare for the week ahead 🤍
2022-06-05 15:47:02 +0000 UTC View Post
Pardon my hair towel. I hope you have a great day!!
Pardon my hair towel. I hope you have a great day!!
2022-06-04 14:54:42 +0000 UTC View Post
With all that said in my previous post, I cannot keep up wit..
With all that said in my previous post, I cannot keep up with dms right now. I appreciate so many kind words and encouragement, and the generous tips. I am striving for bare minimum in all aspects of my life as I focus entirely on learning this new road I’m on. It’s not just here, it’s everywhere. I’ve asked my family and friends to give me some space, time and patience as well. One thing about being involved with me is requiring boatloads amount of patience. I always just hope the limited good things I have to offer outweigh the bad, so when “the good me” is back, they still have a spot for me in their life. Thank you for understanding, and I’m sorry if you don’t.
2022-06-02 16:49:20 +0000 UTC View PostI’ve been wanting to write my thoughts out more somewhere. I..
I’ve been wanting to write my thoughts out more somewhere. I’ve been trying journaling but it hasn’t been good. It feels like my fears and bad thoughts and self deprecations are being put somewhere I can look back and see how far I haven’t really come. Seeing the hopes I had and planting the seeds for things that will never materialize now. Reading the thoughts of a future I won’t get to experience. Plans have changed, as they always do. It’s something we can expect and count on. But there is a grieving process for those old dreams and good times that can’t be repeated. I’ve been in the fog of grief for awhile now. Bouncing between vices and trying to feel like the world isn’t upside down. Trying to sleep as much as I can so I can escape what the reality is. Crying a lot but also attending kids sports and school events five days/week, and insanely busy weekends. Trying to look like my happy normal self. Holding everything and then some together while I’ve been falling apart. Life is no easy trip.
I will be leaving Twitter entirely and won’t go back. I’m coming up fast to 50k followers and have been mulling about what I wanted with that account. Every time I go on it’s like revisiting a place that haunts you. Except our “places” now are within the realm of the internet. We call it entertainment but I’ve made real connections, real emotions, real best friends and some real severe pain. I have always often shouted my emotions to everyone on that platform. Tweets that weren’t what they sounded like or how I meant them, tweets coming from a place of mental illness in its most extremely damaging forms. Tweets I didn’t actually even want anyone to see but sent anyway. Tweets that weren’t me. Things that creep into your mind when you are in despair. I don’t want *that* form of me to have a voice anymore.
I wanted to put it here first, I’ve completed the process for a career change and will be leaving for this new adventure, sometime in the nearish future. When it’s time, I won’t be able to have this type of account anymore. I don’t have an exact timeline, as I will just be given short notice when a space is open for me. Until then, I will probably be using this as my replacement for Twitter. Thoughts and pics of myself. That’s all I really have to offer anyone anyway. I hope for myself, that putting these here instead of a journal I will force myself to rephrase how I speak to myself. Having a small audience may help form my words and thoughts in a way that might be relevant or helpful to others who might be experiencing the same type of fears and feelings. Whatever you’re going through, whatever you’ve done, however you’ve been hurt or hurt others, all I hope is that you experience compassion, understanding and forgiveness, and can provide that to those in your life as well. We don’t need to make anything harder than it has to be for anyone, no one should bear their suffering alone. Kindness is a grace anyone can provide 🤍
