I was super attracted to this nail color and I couldn’t figu..
Added 2022-07-07 23:05:18 +0000 UTCI was super attracted to this nail color and I couldn’t figure out why. Like, it was the only color my soul would let me choose out of my many options. Well, now it hit me, I’ve been doing this meditation on YouTube occasionally for months now, since April, actually. It’s a meditation I normally would avoid because it has to do with love and I fear love, like, I literally run away from love. I was head over heels in love with 314 and wanted nothing more than to be with him in 2018, but I couldn’t even tell him that because love and relationships TERRIFY me. So I just kept telling him I didn’t want a relationship. I didn’t mean I didn’t want to be with him, I just meant I wasn’t ready to jump into a relationship see each other more than we were, which was once a month because it was a cross state thing. I just wanted to take things slow, but he never asked for clarification and I think he assumed I just didn’t actually want to be with him. My life was a mess and I was confused. I needed time. I should’ve just jumped instead. I knew him for a decade. He was the greatest guy I had ever been with. I didn’t have a reason to be scared of being in a relationship with him, but I was because of my past history with terrible relationships and his ex is a PSYCHO, I knew she would be a problem and didn’t know how to handle her. Anyway, my nails match the screensaver video in the meditation. 🤣
