I want surgery to be a go on Wednesday, but at the same time..
Added 2022-06-20 03:54:40 +0000 UTCI want surgery to be a go on Wednesday, but at the same time, I literally have no one to help me after a major surgery. The roommate won’t even be around the weekend after my surgery. “Oh, I’ll help you, Kayla. I’ll do this for you and that for you,” yet he’s blowing me off. I told him to fuck off and I don’t want his help with anything again. 🤣
No, this isn’t why I ended it, it goes much deeper than this. This is just a small part of it.
The only man who has ever actually taken care of me is the one man I was truly in love with. He would hold my hair back when I puked after drinking too much, then put me to bed in his t-shirt. There was one other man besides him that would care for me like that, but he was just a friend, a great man the world lost in September 2016.
I’d give anything for one of these two men to be by my side after surgery Wednesday, if it’s a go.
Before I ended it with the roommate yesterday, I was crying in the living room Thursday night because I just found out my insurance denied my surgery I DESPERATELY need, the roommate didn’t even try to comfort me, just walked right past me, not caring at all. That’s not why I ended it either, it goes much deeper than that, but I knew at that moment he didn’t actually care about me as he’s been pretending to before this.
