I’m frustrated by my inability to make content right now. I’..

I’m frustrated by my inability to make content right now. I’m frustrated that I’m only averaging like $10/hour after expenses driving ride-share. I’m frustrated that I don’t have many options right now for work because I don’t have a car and I’m in an area with no public transportation. It would cost me at least $60 one way to get to any nearby store from where I’m staying, I can’t even go work at Walmart right now. I know this is temporary. I have a plan, a plan that’s going to take me from state to state and maybe then I can finally escape the memories of the man who broke my heart. I’m frustrated that my intuition tells me he’s coming back, but he never does. I don’t know why I can’t stop believing he’ll come back and just let go. Probably because when everyone thought my grandma was going to die in 2018, my intuition told me she wouldn’t, and I was right, she’s still here. The same thing happened this year with my grandpa, everyone said he wouldn’t make it, but I knew he would, my intuition told me so, and I was right, he made it. I’m frustrated I can’t visit my grandparents due to family drama with my mom and her sister. I’m just so fucking frustrated at every aspect of my life right now, but I’m thankful to finally be in a good and safe home with people who truly love me and care about my well being. The friends I’m staying with are incredible people and I’m so thankful for them. Also, I should be able to get my bankruptcy paid off soon even though I’m not making much money just because my expenses are so low currently. Life is slowly moving forward and I know this situation is just temporary.

I found out recently that ride-share drivers in my state earn 44% below the national average, so I’m currently in a really bad state to be driving ride-share in. It sucks, but it is what it is.

My situation is only temporary, if all goes well, within the next 12 months I’ll have a job that pays me really good money and takes me from state to state. I don’t wanna discuss my plan, trying to keep it hush, hush because I don’t need people in my new industry knowing I’m an adult content creator, it could jeopardize my plan and make it harder for me to find work in that industry. Don’t worry, I don’t plan on ending my career as an adult content creator, this job will actually allow me more time to create.