The funniest part of that story about my crush is: If I told..
Added 2021-08-20 15:50:36 +0000 UTCThe funniest part of that story about my crush is: If I told him I was crushing hard on him back I finally found the courage to talk him for the first time in late 2017, and had he liked me too, then the guy who shattered my fucking heart in 2018, causing me to shut down, have the worst mental breakdown I’ve ever had, and causing me to completely stop dating and having sex for years, would’ve never had a chance with me. I had been secretly crushing on that guy for years too, but I wanted this other guy so much more than I wanted the one who broke my heart. Shortly after I finally started talking to my crush, he started dating someone else. I moved on because I don’t go after other women’s men. Unfortunately for me, I moved on with the guy who shattered my fucking heart, but even when I was with him, I couldn’t stop thinking about this other guy I was still crushing hard on, so I kept going to see him where he worked just to have an excuse to talk to him. I never told him why I was really going in there though. I pretended to be a regular customer. I wonder what would’ve happened if I would’ve just told him in 2017, the first time I went into that store just to see him, that I was crushing on him? It’s okay, though. I was a mess back then. This man has his shit together more than I ever did, which was embarrassing for me because he’s younger than me. I didn’t want him to know what a mess I was, so I kept my distance from him instead. It worked out, thanks to that other guy shattering my heart, and the drama that ensued, I started my porn career, and I’m happier than I’ve ever been now. So, everything happens for a reason, but I still wish I could have a chance just to go out with that incredibly HOT man just once, but I don’t even know if he likes me, and we don’t see each other or talk anymore, so I’ll probably never find out how he feels about me.
