*I've had this post in my drafts since Oct (which is why I'm..
Added 2022-04-29 14:20:23 +0000 UTC*I've had this post in my drafts since Oct (which is why I'm mentioning the mini stroke as happening recently), but it really felt like the right time to share this. I keep getting clobbered with some flare or life shit after another and it feels like I haven't been functional since the shoot. Not being able to get enough of my meds has been really messing with me and I'm doing my best to remember my body has had a rly rough couple of weeks and its understandable there are some repercussions (however maddingly frustrating they may be). My bad flares also lined up terribly with Rue having to take some time off so I wasn't able to get the extra help with the executive function side of things and it easily falls apart from there... the extra layer of not being able to finish the caticorn shoot that everyone worked so hard on is mildly soul killing as well of course (ssh brain just keep swimming) anyway my point is I know this flare wont last forever. I watch this video and I tell myself I will have a moment like that again soon. Even though I am beyond exhausted I can't give up. I have to keep fighting to get to my next moment of joy tho things seem bleak now. I know many of you are also going through rough times and I hope this p;ost brings you a smile and a reminder not to give up and that you're not alone
